i have many things to talk about, i got bullets to shoot at everyone no distinction.

im confused. i always thought of myself stupid, when i compared myself to my peers or even random people, it always seemed like i was the less smart of them all. but tbh i dont even need to compare myself to others to see that im dumb asf, i just have to look at my choices and the path i took that led to this.

somehow though there are people dumber than me and its hurting me. a subset of these people are torturing me specifically, the ones that are so sure of themselves that they think of themselves as smart while having their stupid dogshit fentanyl powered brain thoughts. its scary because those people hold control over others, you dont need to look far for it, politicians are the easiest example to think of, but theres also your manager, your boss, cops, your "genius" coworker.

i hate this, i hate this so much. i hate how their choices are hurting other people more though. i hate the harmful ideas they spread that lead to people being descriminated, harassed, abused, killed. as of today, march 21st 2026, i witnessed these things online: people cheering for v-coding in american prison complex, people watching and rewarding streamers harming and abusing "guests" to death, how epstein was actually a "russian spy" doing black flag operation to harm the reputation of jews, israeli people specifically, to then drop any attempts at "hot potato-ing" him and flood internet with memes and videos about him to picture him as a "chad", a superhero or whatever.

the internet is hurting me, not just the people on there. scrolling mind numbing content, when i catch myself doing that, i cant help but want to smash my skull open and drain my brain out. the bullshit i watch somehow makes me literally ache, i dont know if its cringiness or something else that is specifically attacking me, im just like "i just scrolled and absorbed so much garbage that ill probably forget soon, but that garbage is so stupid it hurts me". there's this twitter thing I hate where people are fraud but post things like this as if they are into this. it's some sort of performative action to signal "yeah I'm a dev" "yeah I'm a hacker" or stuff like that but they actually just post memes about it and pics of themselves with their shiny MacBook in some coffeeshop or a library. I hate that, I hate performative actors, I hate frauds. fuck all of them.